Ajeng's Diary

    بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful There are things in life that we can’t complain for. Allah knows best for me and you. I May feel pain, I may get hurt, but all those feelings somehow will lead you back to your Creator, to the best version of yourself. I may don’t know what He already planned for me, but I know for sure, He wants best for me. He wants to save me. I admit that I am not good enough. I ignored His signs. His signs that I should stop doing wrong. But He never give up to give me that signs. I might be late to realize His signs, but I thank Allah that He never closed His door for me. I cried a lot, I depressed, but in the end He is The One who waits for me and actually He always been there for me, in all the situations i got thru.  O Allah, what will I be if you are not taking care of me. I might get lost and fell into an endless sorrow. It’s really hard for me at first to Trust You back, I...

     بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful   Hi there, I hope you are doing well there. Alhamdulillah we reach again Ramadan this year and may we can still meet ramadan in years to come, Aamiin.. Today is April 17 2022, which means it is already Day 15 of ramadan and In Sha Allah we still have a half month to finish it. May we can give our best before this holy month left us :((( Aamiin You know, sometimes I feel like I haven’t give the best of me on this blessed month, and If you also feel same, so let’s start again to make the best deeds, the best ibadah to Allah in this blesssed month. We still have time to fix our ibadah, to firm our intentions.  Let’s make these steps to do the best in this half ramadan In Sha Allah: First , Let’s fix our salah . It’s all our problem to pray on time :( If you are already a person who prays on time, Ma Sha Allah, May Allah make it consitent for you Aamiin.. But ...

I was so negative andtoxic to myself, I can say it as insecurity. I used to be sad if I am not as beautiful as other people. It’s not negative for others, It’s negative for myself. I mean when i think I am not beautiful, I used to talk to myself; “ Oh Ajeng, why you can’t take care of yourself? Why u so messed up? Why you are not enough? Why you are fat? Why you have pimples. ” Oh my pity soul, I am so sorry for what I did to you, it took so much time to me to realize that I am enough, I am beautiful, I deserve good things happen to me. My pity soul, u did a great job, now you can take ur time to get some rest, cause here, I promise you, I won’t be that negative anymore. I know it’s not easy, I know I may negative some day later, but I promise you that I will try my best. I will take care of you and preserve you from toxicity. Cause I realize that why should I be sad, when I know that my Allah has already giving me everything. Why should I worry about what people think about me, why sh...

    بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Apa Kabar semuanya? Semoga selalu dalam lindungan Allah ya,  Udah lama banget rasanya ga nulis blog dan rasanya ini tulisan pertama ku dengan bahasa Indonesia. To be honest, aku biasanya buat blog pakai bahasa Inggris bukan karena aku pintar dalam bahasa Inggris. Bahkan aku menyadari banyak sekali kekurangan, ntah itu di minim vocab atau grammar yang tidak sesuai. Tapi itu semua ku lakukan untuk mengasah kemampuan bahasa Inggrisku dan juga untuk lebih confident dalam menggunakan bahasa Inggris. Aku belum tau arah tema tulisan ini tuh apa, pelan-pelan ya siapa tau nanti dapet ide hehehe.. Oiya ku mau sharing cerita yang aku baca aja dari sebuah buku. Ini cerita mengenai melihat suatu kebaikan. Sebenernya aku udah pernah share foto mengenai cerita ini di IG, tapi mungkin ada beberapa yang belum tau tentang kisah ini. Jadi dikisahkan bahwa dahulu, salah satu murid dari N...

  بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Assalamu'alaikum guys, it's been a while i didn't post anything here. Because actually i was busy about my work and other stuff. And to be honest, i don't even know what i want to write right now. I just feel like i need to cause i don't want to pass this weekend only laying on my bed. But actually i have schedule to do laundry, maybe at 2, but now it's 11.42. So i have couple of hours to wait till i do laundry. So i want to share something that i have been doing since a week and maybe 2 months. So i have two habits that i am trying to follow it. So  first, I have been managing my financial for a week or more. To be exact in November 19. Also I make a plan for every week to re-memorize my quran and also memorize it little by little for the surah i haven't memorized it yet. but let me make a disclaimer, I actually not a hafizah. And I don't know will I memor...

  بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Hi June, Thank you for being here, it's almost your 25 years with me. I like you June, not because I was born in this month but also your name is quite unique and beautiful. To be honest, This month especially in my born date, I expect nothing, not a gift, not even praise. You are just like ordinary months, but when I hear your name being said, my heart feels blooming because how beautiful it is. And I want to thank Allah that He has given me everything, He gives me life, He gives me chances, chances to keep being on His track and to be a better person. I know sometimes I fall short, but that doesn't mean that I give up. Because I know, my  Allah , will never leave me, He waits for me, He forgives me. I know I am not a saint, not even pious. I made mistakes, I do sins, I strayed, But His love overcomes everything. His love even far bigger than His wrath. I believe that my A...

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful True contentment is only when you are with Allah, when you spread your sajdah in the middle of the night and you pour out your feelings to Him. He is Allah, As-Samee'  - The All Hearing, indeed He hears you, even you can't say the supplications that you were meant to because you were immersed in sorrow. Allah is The One who is always with you, and He never left you even for a second. We are too busy to pile up our worldly things whereas Allah says in the Qur'an that worldly things are just a test for us. الْمَالُ وَالْبَنُونَ زِينَةُ الْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا Treasure and children are the jewels of the world's life [Al-Kahfi : 46]    This surah reminds us that even our own children is a test, our treasure is a test. This all that we have in dunya, just to test us and it won't last forever but our deed is.  We are too busy in this dunya only for temporary enjoyment wherea...

بِسْمِ   اللهِ   الرَّحْمٰنِ   الرَّحِيْمِ In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful      I have to tell you that you are beautiful! No matter how much you hate your eyes, your nose, or anything that relate to your body. You are perfectly beautiful! Only one thing that makes you ugly is your negative perspective about yourself which saying that you are not beautiful! We are as human is already created by our Supreme Lord; Allah, perfretly! He created us in the best of forms ( see qur'an  95:4). So, In point of fact, You are Perfectly Created . Why are you still comparing yourself with another persons that have white colour skin, straight hair, tall, etc? You are a uniqe and beautiful human being that Allah created, you should be grateful. So many people we found out that they have flaws like have no perfect hands or feet or eyes or anything like us but that doesn't mean Allah doesn't love them. He does and He will always love them. And...

  بِسْمِ   اللهِ   الرَّحْمٰنِ   الرَّحِيْمِ In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful How are you doing guys? It's been a while that I didn't post anything yet here. But today, here I am :) Today is so beautiful, I hope your day is  beautiful too. Sadly, till today (September 11, 2020), we are still dealing with corona virus, we can't go outside freely anymore and many of us suffering from many things such as losing job, working but unpaid, half-paid working, decreasing in income, etc. I k now that many of us are stressing this a lot but if we can see  this pandemic in positive sides, I guess, we will become a grateful person. And indeed, nothing to be worry, nothing to be sad. I will write something to you, my dearest friend, for you that hopeless, for you that lost, kindly take a look :) Dear you, I know it's hard, I know it doesn't look like what u expected You may sit sadly, and feel so lonely  No one understand you, that's what y...

  TOP 20 ISLAMIC WEBSITES THAT BRINGS YOU CLOSER TO JANNAH Posted by  ZAAHARA .COM  on  December 12, 2017 Here I list the websites that are  beneficial to be visited, i copied this all from zahara.com. I hope this post will be beneficial for those who read it. There are many interesting Muslim websites that Muslims can browse to and discover more about the religion of Islam. Here are the top 20 Muslim websites that are worth it to visit: Quran Online lists all 114 surahs contained in the Quran in ascending order. The website also gives the meaning of the name of the surah in English and an English translation of each verse.  https://quran.com/ Hadith Online divides hadiths according to categories. Listing hadiths as Sahih al-Bukhari, Sahih Muslim and so on. A search toolbar is provided where you can search for a specific hadith if you want to. The slogan says “The Hadith of the Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. at your fingertips” is definitely true.  https://su...

بِسْمِ   اللهِ   الرَّحْمٰنِ   الرَّحِيْمِ In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Today, I am gonna share to you all about hairfall treatment. My hair type is straight and strong but in the end of June 2020, I began to try to colour  my hair with brown colour but unfortunately, it caused loss on my  hair. I was thinking that it would not stay for so long, i mean maybe in few days, my hair would be normal again, but the fact was, my hair, day by day. getting thin due to hairfall. Then i started to find out how to make my hair strong again and especially to overcome the hairfall. So, i tried these ways for only 3 weeks then my hair now is better than before even though i still will get hairfall, but  for me, it is  a normal amount of hairfall.  So, let's check these ways out!! 1. Shampoo your hair 1 time in 2 days (actually this is what I did  even before i got hairfall) 2. A day before you shampoo your hair (at night), put ...

بِسْمِ   اللهِ   الرَّحْمٰنِ   الرَّحِيْمِ In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful It's been sooooo long that i haven't posted anything yet.  But today, here I am... In Shaa Allah   Today i wanna bring the topic that relates to our current condition where nowadays people are stingy for spending their money while it's related to the deen. Not only about charity but also about seeking knowledge as well. Why do I say this? Let’s check it out ! Nowadays, people are too easy to buy things that actually, they don't really need it in their lives such as new clothes, new bags, new wallets, new laptop, new handphone, etc. Tho, they already have such things and everything is okay, nothing to be replaced but still they buy it in the name of trend. 'Audzubillah... Let's we do istighfar. Astagfirullah hal'adzim I am not talking like this to corner you  but it's the reality even myself also do such things sometimes :( Inalillahi We buy things...