Ajeng's Diary

  بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Assalamu'alaikum guys, it's been a while i didn't post anything here. Because actually i was busy about my work and other stuff. And to be honest, i don't even know what i want to write right now. I just feel like i need to cause i don't want to pass this weekend only laying on my bed. But actually i have schedule to do laundry, maybe at 2, but now it's 11.42. So i have couple of hours to wait till i do laundry. So i want to share something that i have been doing since a week and maybe 2 months. So i have two habits that i am trying to follow it. So  first, I have been managing my financial for a week or more. To be exact in November 19. Also I make a plan for every week to re-memorize my quran and also memorize it little by little for the surah i haven't memorized it yet. but let me make a disclaimer, I actually not a hafizah. And I don't know will I memor

  بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful Hi June, Thank you for being here, it's almost your 25 years with me. I like you June, not because I was born in this month but also your name is quite unique and beautiful. To be honest, This month especially in my born date, I expect nothing, not a gift, not even praise. You are just like ordinary months, but when I hear your name being said, my heart feels blooming because how beautiful it is. And I want to thank Allah that He has given me everything, He gives me life, He gives me chances, chances to keep being on His track and to be a better person. I know sometimes I fall short, but that doesn't mean that I give up. Because I know, my  Allah , will never leave me, He waits for me, He forgives me. I know I am not a saint, not even pious. I made mistakes, I do sins, I strayed, But His love overcomes everything. His love even far bigger than His wrath. I believe that my Allah i

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful True contentment is only when you are with Allah, when you spread your sajdah in the middle of the night and you pour out your feelings to Him. He is Allah, As-Samee'  - The All Hearing, indeed He hears you, even you can't say the supplications that you were meant to because you were immersed in sorrow. Allah is The One who is always with you, and He never left you even for a second. We are too busy to pile up our worldly things whereas Allah says in the Qur'an that worldly things are just a test for us. الْمَالُ وَالْبَنُونَ زِينَةُ الْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا Treasure and children are the jewels of the world's life [Al-Kahfi : 46]    This surah reminds us that even our own children is a test, our treasure is a test. This all that we have in dunya, just to test us and it won't last forever but our deed is.  We are too busy in this dunya only for temporary enjoyment whereas ak