Ajeng's Diary

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Have you ever felt sadness which you don't even know what's going on with yourself? you just feel empty inside and somehow you feel like you have doubts with Allah? What kind of doubts in this case? It's like you have doubts to Allah that He will not give you rizq tomorrow (You are jobless and you feel that way), you feel that you will not gonna meet with your mate, when you are sick you feel that you're not gonna health and everything about worldly life, you have doubts with it. Have you ever felt like that? If yea, then you are not alone. Wallah, i am 100% sure, all human being ever felt that way. But don't let syathan deceived you, because it is their job to make you doubts in all aspect. They want you to be sad and doubting Allah so that  they can make you astray. Related to the preach that i got a few days ago from Ustad Nouman Ali Khan, you know when Adam 'Alaihi salam was about to be created by Allah then

Dear my brothers and sisters, who are about to give up in this life... You are not alone who has this feelings, the feeling that you just want to give everything up. The feeling that you are exhausting enough, the feeling that you just want to end this all. I say to you, that you are not alone. Some of us struggling for surviving in their new workplace, new environment, new tasks, new responsibilities and many more. Some of us are also struggling with their financial issue, offspring, spouses and many more. But you just can't give up on it. I know that You are struggling for surviving yourself in the place that you can't call it as home. You are struggling for overcome your inner ego because you are tired enough with people around you or the condition or environment that made you want to give up. I stand by you. I feel it too. We are in the same boat.  But, my brothers and sisters, life is not about pursuing worldly life instead life is about to worship Allah and